Oh dear gods...

So many things in my head and I don't even know how to process it.

But it sucks.

And I can't talk to anyone about it - because they don't GET it.

Some of them do - some of them really do - but they aren't the ones I have the most consistent contact with.

Fuck.

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Generally been feeling really good the last few days (minus the panic attack and fucking scary dream) - not getting a huge amount of academic stuff done but at the same time I am.

I need to go to bed.

I'm going to bed.

Missing Guy - I just need someone to distract me (funnily, I mean my brain - nothing more or less) and he has proven very good at that.